Being Vulnerable

I love that I’ve found someone to be with that makes me feel safe. Vulnerability is the one thing I’ve always been fearful of.

When Sir fucks and beats me I go into a headspace that leaves my mind blank and my head spinning.

Last night I got really high with Him. He stepped outside for a minute and my pussy started throbbing.

I hadn’t had His dick inside me in a minute and my pussy couldn’t wait any more. I pulled out one of my favorite vibrators and dildo. I took my pants off and went right to work on making my pussy cum.

Turning my vibrator up on high and sucking on my dildo imaging it was Sir’s dick, I couldn’t wait for him to walk back into the room and catch me like the whore I am.

And He did…

He gave me the smirk He always does to let me know that He is going to enjoy me in new ways tonight.

He made me cum over and over again. And I took it all!

After he filled me with His cum I laid there trying to catch my breath. And before I could stop myself the tears began to fall. He broke…

Broke me in a way I needed! He comforted me and rubbed my back easing me back. I didn’t know I needed the release but it was happening and I couldn’t stop it. My body shook and I felt myself sink into little space.

My regression happened and I couldn’t stop it. It scared me. The last time I allowed myself to be this vulnerable and I slipped into little space I got stuck and the person I was with at the time didn’t know how to handle it.

But with Sir I felt safe. As scary as it was I trust him. I sat up and tried to slow my breathing. The further I sunk the scarier it felt. The tears began again as the panic set in. I laid my head in his lap as he told me I was safe and rubbed my back.

Instead of trying to fight it, I let it out and allowed myself to be vulnerable with him. Instead of hiding from the emotions that He brings out of me I let them wash over me.

He helped me control my breathing and gave me water until I finally was done crying. He helped me get into bed and all I could do was put my thumb in my mouth to give me more comfort.

I laid down trying to get my mind to relax. My body was tingling and my brain wasn’t my own. Little space became my world.

It felt good to be in that space. Nothing else mattered except me! But I couldn’t express myself with words. I rolled around in bed until I finally was calm enough to sleep.

Sir made sure I was okay before He laid down. Making sure I drank water and felt safe. When I was comfortable enough I curled up in my blankets and fell asleep!