Why Do I Submit?

Before I tell you why I submit, let’s talk about what submission is…

Submission is oftentimes looked at as a weakness in the Vanilla world. I remember opening up to my mother about being submissive and the first thing out of her mouth was “I don’t have time to be anyone’s doormat” and I shook my head and walked away. I knew this wasn’t a conversation I could just have with anyone.

Submission is the willingness to give control over to another person. Allowing yourself to be led. To allow yourself to be led you have to know a few things: why you want/need to be led? What are your faults/weaknesses? What do you offer in exchange? and of course, these are all the things you should be discussing with the potential Dom.

When I first began my journey I didn’t have anyone to talk to. I questioned my sanity! Wondered if I had wandered down the rabbit hole and if I was lost to it forever. But I knew in my heart that I wanted to serve the man I ended up with. I wanted stability in my life and discipline.

When I started meeting people in other states and going to more events I saw the way subs would dress and act. It made me feel less than as if I didn’t fit into the role. As if being a sub meant I had to fit into a box. As if the title sub was something to be rather than who I am.

When Sir and I sat down and wrote out what our needs, wants, and gives, I knew I needed to be honest about what I needed and expected from Him. Out of the Dom’s I have been in a dynamic (relationship) with, Sir has been the first one to truly give me things I didn’t realize I needed. He is Daddy, Master, and Sir. He validated all of the things within me that I had questioned about myself.

Daddy to teach me things I didn’t know I needed to know at this point in life. Taking care of me emotionally, physically, and mentally.

Master, to show me what discipline and structure look like. Training me to be the perfect slut for Him.

Sir, to address him with the respect He deserves.

I submit to Him not because it is easy, but because I like who I am a lot more when I serve Him. I submit because life outside of home sometimes becomes too much for me to handle and He has taught me way to better handle it. Because He sees the darkness in my eyes and doesn’t shun me for it. He matches that energy!

Submission turned to service and serving Sir has been the one thing that has kept me sane. When I feel lost I get down on my knees and breathe deeply imagining Sir petting my head. I welcome the feeling of accomplishment when I complete a task He’s asked me to do. I love being an obedient slut.

I submit because without it most days I’m lost., but I submit to Sir because He makes my life easier. And not easier in that I don’t have to lift a finger but easier as in gives me knowledge and a purpose.