11-27-22
Dear Sir,
Yesterday was a great day. The moments that we share truly make me happy to have been chosen to submit to you. Thank You, Sir, for choosing me to be Your Submissive. There is truly never a dull moment with You and You keep me on my toes.
We finished watching “The Vow” and again we had another conversation that was thought-provoking. Our conversations truly hold weight for me. So much of how those women felt about “Him” in the documentary I could understand. The biggest issue was his approach and lack of (nonexistent) consent.
Every day I consent to You, my trust, emotions, body, money, my life. Without question. It can be a bit scary because of the intensity, but I don’t doubt Your training or ability to lead me. I see the progress I’ve made in just a short amount of time and I wish to continue it.
We briefly discussed branding the last time we watched the show and I had said it was something I considered a hell no for a while, but between rereading “The Story of O” and watching “The Vow”, I had time to reconsider it. It could be moved to a maybe or yes one day. I’ve thought about it and could I picture myself getting a brand for You? Could I show You that kind of Devotion? Maybe a tattoo vs a cattle prod-type brand. I’ve started looking at tattoo ideas. I’m in no rush to do this, but it does play on my mind. I want to wait until I am completely Your and we are in O/our own space.
Being with You makes me realize what it takes to be in a healthy relationship. You have helped me see myself in a better light. Have more confidence in myself. The other night when You fucked me You asked me if I realized it was more than sex.
THE THINGS YOU SAID…
- My job is to Cook, Clean, Fuck, and bring You Your money Sir.
The control I have given to You over my finances has helped me check my impulsive spending. I have money that rolls over to the next check.
- It’s time I start eating off the floor.
I truly want to give in more and more to the puppy side of me. I want to go on walks as it gets warmer outside. I also really want to put together my puppy attire. I want puppy bowls to eat out of. I want to have a full day of me being a puppy.
- I am a whore and I work for You and You want me to sell my ass.
I could see You lending me out to men and women for money. Whoring for You turns me on. Not something I think I would want to happen too many times though.
These are the 3 things that stood out to me the most. My job and rules growing and it’s bringing me deeper into my submission to You. Things have been rocky in our day to day. From our living situation to cars, jobs, and other things we feel obligated to in our lives. We are finally getting into a space where things are balancing out. The good and bad days are about even for me right now.
We are working on our goals and working together to make things happen. For once I feel like I am a part of a great team and enjoying a healthy relationship. I’ve even started writing again. Doing my journaling. Part of me regrets stopping and wishes You would hold me accountable for not doing them, but I also know we had a lot going on.
I do feel that I need more structure and accountability in the things I do because they are what make me and are my true interest. Punishments may need to be implemented.
The things that I need to keep doing:
- reading
- writing
- yoga
- spiritual care
- self-care
I realize I haven’t written You a letter in a while and had some things on my mind and I wanted to share them with You. I would love to have a discussion about this letter.
Zaire
Sir’s Pet
Subspace Seduction 