O

So, I have a friend that is reading “The Story of O” and she is having some difficulties accepting what O is doing and why. I told her I completely understand that feeling because the first time I read it I was very shocked about the things she was willing to submit herself to.

I told her that this was O’s way of expressing her love for them. Her devotion. I envy O even though she is not a real person (as far as I know). Her ability to do as she was told without question, and without hesitation in most cases. I’ve found myself hesitant at times, rolling my eyes in secret curing his name in my mind lol. I feel that is because I’ve had a hard time letting go of control fully.

Recently I’ve been better about it. I’m trying to be better at listening to learn instead of listening to respond. Sir has a lot of insight and information to give and I sometimes get excited and cut him off and I don’t do it intentionally, I’ve been trying to catch myself.

I’ve decided to read the book again and remind myself of why I started this journey as a submissive because too many times I’ve seen people on my side of the slash switch become Tops or Doms. I don’t want that. I want to continue on this path for as long as I can. I want to continue to get have joy in serving.

I want that feeling of complete understanding and devotion to wash over me again. I want to feel what she feels like I’m walking in her shoes. I feel the part that always gets me is how willing she was to share her body with whoever Rene and Sir Stephen asked her to. She was a whore and pain slut. O is me!

I’m Gonna Sell This Ass

Sharing my body with anyone other than Sir was something I was hesitant about in my head for a while. Sir has been telling me for a while that he is going to sell my pussy and mouth to make him some money and for a little while I was in my head like NAAAHHHH that’s not happening thinking it’s just something he says when he fucks me.

It hasn’t happened yet, but I am no longer hesitant about it in my head. I’ve had fantasies before about being used by multiple men, but always thought they would stay just that. Never thought I would be with someone so willing to slut me out.

It turns me on knowing Sir wants to use his property how he likes.

“You’re gonna sell this ass for me.”

“You’re all mouth.”

“I’m gonna sell this mouth of yours”

Just a few of the things He tells me and each time I reply with Yes, Sir. I want to please Him, but also a part of me just loved being a whore. SLUT ME OUT!! Tell them what a nasty bitch I am. Tell them how I suck Your dick, Sir. How I love to spit and blow bubbles all over it and then rub it on my face. How I love gagging on it because I’m so greedy.

Tell them how much I love sitting on Your dick and can’t stop cumming for You. Tell them how much I need to be fucked. How I can’t function without a dick in me. Entice them with this whore. I will make You some money Daddy.